Thursday, August 9, 2007

square peg + round hole = never good

Oh my. It's been a crazy 48 hours!

We went to open house on Tuesday evening and Jesse, my BIL, started complaining of sharp stomach pains. His mom said that she was having them the day before and since he looked kinda nervous I honestly figured it was just gas, but we weren't there 20 minutes before he wanted to go home. So we took him home and about 30 minutes later his mom calls and says that she's taking him to the emergency room. We still thought that Jesse was laying it on a little thick because he was too nervous to switch schools but didn't want to disappoint everyone...

A couple of hours later we get a frantic phone call from his mom at the hospital saying that they're transferring him to H'ville's Woman's & Children's hospital and that they think he has E. coli. My poor in laws thought that it was untreatable for some reason and they were totally freaking out. (as would anyone if they thought their son had an incurable disease...) So long story short, Jeremy and I ended up staying up most of the night with his family in the hospital, Jesse just has some sort of weird stomach bug, we're not moving because he doesn't want to switch schools, and I'm T-totally exhausted from all of it! :o)

I still had to work yesterday because there was no one here to cover for me, but I managed to sleep a little during my lunch break, so it wasn't too horrible. And I was really disappointed that we're not going to move, but I realized that it was God's will. It was really beginning to feel like trying to fit a square peg in a round hole, but unfortunately, when I really want something I keep blindly pushing forward despite all obstacles. Jesse really did lead us on, but I'm not upset at him. I really thought that this would be a good thing for all of us, but God knows better than we do - and this hit me so hard on Tuesday that there's no denying the fact that God was doing a little finger waging at me. Yet another lesson learned! There's been sooo many this year!! :o)

I WI this morning and was up 2 pounds. I really am not surprised, but I've got to find a way to get it back in control. Between being sick and getting away with eating what I wanted because I wasn't eating much, stress eating and then exhaustion eating I've not had an OP day in a couple of weeks. So I'm just trying to get back in the saddle. I just really don't want to, you know? ;o) Well, it must be done!

I hope you all have wonderful OP days! I'm gonna go see what I missed yesterday!


MMalloy said...

I am sorry the move isn't going to go as planned. You are right though, God has a plan and sooner or later it will all work out how it is supposed to.
I am so glad to hear your BIL is okay, how scary. Catch up on your zzzs!! Hopefully things will settle down now and you can get back on track, I am right there with you!

Randi said...

Too bad about the move but you're right, it's not your call. I also need a bit of a kick in the rear to get going again. Been stuck for like a month!
Once you get back OP you'll feel better about yourself and you'll feel healthier and having a few "good" days with lots of sleep should get that started for you. Good luck!

Calyn said...

Everything happens for a reason even if you do not know what that reason is yet...hang in there- sounds like you are exhausted and emotional eating seems to be a trigger for a lot of people. And it is hard to get back on track. I am the perfect story- I got off Atkins, had lost 35 lbs and kept saying "tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow". When tomorrow finally came I gain it all back plus 25 more... so get back on the horse NOW!!! ((hugs)) You CAN Do it!!!

Anonymous said...

Soory about the changed plans, but maybe there is something better in store for you around the bend! I'm glad Jesse is OK and I am right there with you on the tough OP days! I feel like I've been cheating for a month (even though I am pretty much maintaining!)

Amanda said...

Sorry about the move, but god knows what's best and he will let you know when it's time to move. I am SO GLAD Jesse is okay. What a hectic time.

Get back OP!! You CAN DO THIS!!!! Let me tell you this...on Saturday I got on my scales and they said 170.5. Every day this week b/c I've been totally 100% OP, they've gone down. Today it said 163.5!!! There is no way I've lost that much but it's beginning to show me how proper eating day after day affects me. Once you start seeing the scale drop again, that is motivation enough!! :) Hang in there'll get there!

Melanie said...

It is tough to look so foward to something happening and then for it not. But you are absolutely right God has a plan for you and Jeremy. Its that whole patience thing!

So glad to heat that Jesse is okay! And I hope you get caught up on your sleep soon!


Jynell said...

I know the setbacks and changed plans are frustrating, but I can't tell you how many times I've been disappointed and frustrated about things that didn't go MY way- only to be so thrilled & thankful when the Lord does things HIS way. Every time, every single time.. He has provided us with something WAY better than what our original plans were... it'll work out.. Hang in there!! :D

Diet Coke and Zingers said...

Sorry to hear about your disappointment, although I'm sure you're right- something good will come of it. And yes, the saddle sucks and I hate it, but the other option is like walking behind a horse that has terrible gas.

AZ Kate /Ft Art Student said...

You have an incredibly balanced view of life. You are right, maybe you are supposed to stay where you're at.

Ah, yeah-don't feel bad about the WI either, I'm right there with you. I think I'm battling the same 4 lbs over and over again. I'm up 4 lbs from my WI on Wednesday! Geez.