Tuesday, May 22, 2007

dang blame scale!

So we worked our booties off all weekend and got Phase #1 of the laundry room revamp done. The yucky shelves were removed, the walls were cleaned, the window was framed out and we Kilzed and painted the mess out that little room. It’s nice and plain now. :o)
So needless to say, as I was slaving away I didn’t journal, although I kept up with what I was eating and made decent choices. That is until I unearthed my scale Sunday night and weighed myself. I don’t even remember what the stupid thing read, I just know that it was enough to discourage me and send me into a downward spiral of eating. I was STARVING, but I could have made much much much better choices. (like not potato chips….) So I figured that this WI would be a bust. My suspicions were “confirmed” Monday morning when I woke up weighing in at 199 ish. That’s nearly four pounds more than last weeks WI! I was uber frustrated about it all day and almost didn’t go to last night’s WI, but I did. (because I’ve already paid for it) And guess what? I lost .6 pounds! Yay!
As soon as I got home I weighed myself again and my scale read four pounds higher. I was wearing the same exact thing and I hadn’t eaten anything, so that could only mean that my scale is wrong.
So I asked Jeremy to hide it.
I’m not weighing myself every morning this week, and we’ll see how it goes. It makes me sick to think that I could have lost more if I hadn’t let the stupid scale get me down in the first place. But I lost, and I’ll take that. ;o) *shrugs*
I’m going to beat 195 this week if it kills me!! I’ve gotta gotta gotta get down to the 180’s. I’m sick of wearing these baggy clothes, and I absolutely refuse to buy new ones while I’m in the 90’s. (simply because I told myself that I wouldn’t)
oh well. It should be warm today and I’ll be able to swim after work. Fun Times!
Having a great OP day!

Wednesday, May 16, 2007

workin for the weekend

just realized that in one hour I’ll be halfway through my work week. Does it make you sad that I pay attention to these things? I don’t mind working so much - it’s just the waking up early that gets me. I cannot wait to sleep in on Saturday! I told my hubby this morning that we needed to try to get to bed earlier tonight. I just require more sleep than I used to. (I’m the oldest 24 year old you’ll ever meet…)
So I did pretty well yesterday. I only ate 7 points worth of snacks and I ate yummy healthy meals. Jeremy bought this little grill from the Dollar General and we’ve been enjoying grilling out. Food just tastes so much better when it’s cook over an open flame. He laughs at himself every time he uses it though. It’s really kind of sad itty bitty grill, but it was $10, and if we had bought a real one we would have had to move it in a year. This one we can throw away and not worry over it. Plus, it’s portable so we could take it camping with us. (we’ve been talking about going camping ever since we’ve been married - over 2 years and we haven’t gone yet!)
Jeremy’s time in seminary is going faster than I had counted on. At first I thought it would take forever because I can’t wait to have kids, but now I realize that in less than 18 months I could be looking at being a preacher’s wife, a full time homemaker, a mom to be. It’s kind of mind boggling, so I started changing myself now so it won’t be such a shock. I’m learning how to keep my house clean through the week, how to keep my laundry caught up, and how to keep meals cooked. (yes. I know. It’s just me and Jeremy right now, but believe me I’ve struggled with these things) I now have a house that’s #1 pleasant to come home to and #2 not embarrassing for someone else to see. It’s nice, really.
How does this relate to losing weight? Well, if you buy into that theory that stress causes weight gain (which I do) then a more harmonious home would lead to less stress. I usta feel like there was a dark cloud hanging over my head when I was at home because there were so many things that I should be doing. Now, I can’t use the excuse, “I can exercise until the house is cleaned” because the house is mostly clean all the time. I’m still working on it, but this website was the source of my inspiration : http://flylady.net/index.asp
Sorryto ramble on, but I just had to share. It’s making my life so much easier. I hope you all have lovely Wednesdays!

Monday, May 14, 2007


I’m dusting off the cobwebs from my dusty unused blog. I don’t really know what’s up with me. I didn’t have quite as much time on my hands last week as I usually do, but I still should have made time for this. My habits show that I’ve missed the feeling of accountability and the moral support that I get here.
I haven’t done too super great the past week. I had days where I didn’t eat all of my points, and then I had days that I went overboard. And I didn’t journal as much as I should have. I think maybe I needed a break, so that I could have the “fresh start” feeling that I have today. I don’t know. I need to focus in on my next mini-goal instead of thinking about the 50+ pounds that I need to lose.
I guess I get to feeling a little too full of myself sometimes - thinking that I’m the WW jedi master - then have a hiccup like last week and feel like I’m starting all over again.
Weigh-In is tonight. I had told myself that I would use my “no weigh-in” coupon, but I think that I might need a little public humiliation. I need a good kick in the pants. I’m sure I’ve gained, but I guess I probably need that for motivation. (I know, I have a sick & twisted mind)
But instead of thinking of this as turning over a new leaf (as I normally do - I’ve turned over so many new leaves that I if I were a real tree I’d be dead) I’m going to think of this as a lesson learned. No meeting + no blogging + no journaling = habits out of control = weight gain. I don’t like that I prefer foods that aren’t healthy for me, but maybe one day I can face down a chocolate cake and have a teeny tiny slice and be happy with just that.

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

Itching to Inch Down

Yesterday was pretty great. I stayed OP, ate bigger meals and less snacks, and spent some quality time with my hubby. We grilled chicken last night. I never realized how delicious grilled foods were. My dad grilled a lot when we were kids, but I just thought that he was a good cook! :o) Maybe Jeremy’s just a good cook, too.
I’m slowly inching my way down this week. For some reason my scale has been my friend. That makes me happy.
I hope that this warm weather continues to warm up my pool, but even if it doesn’t, I’m getting back in tonight if it’s not raining. I’d much rather be cold and jumping around my pool than to be burning up sweaty red faced nasty working out on the elliptical. Mom and I are walking tomorrow night, so that’ll be three exercise sessions for this week. I’m still working on getting up earlier to work out, but I turn so red that it takes forever for me to turn back to my normal pastey color. And I don’t want to go to work looking like a lobster. Oh well. Maybe once it gets warm enough I can swim in the mornings and I won’t turn red.
That should be about enough ramblings for one day. Here’s the journal. I didn’t drink enough water, but other than that I did pretty well.
Roni’s Applepie Oatmeal
Chicken Egg Roll
SO Teriaki Chicken
string cheese stick
grilled chicken
corn, pintos & green beans
100 cal pack kettle corn
granola bar
I was a point short, I know, but oh well.
Thanks to everyone for their sweet comments & encouragement! I really don’t think that I could keep this up without ya’ll! I hope you have a great day!