purple haze

Warning: I'm stoned out on cold meds, so please forgive me if this one is rambly and pointless. :o) (But no worries - it'll wear off before I have to drive or operate heavy machinery)

I've been eating bad things, but not in large quantities. I haven't had an appetite, yet I still eat. I guess it's a comfort thing. I'm also drinking OJ that's 3 points a can. And I'm bloated from TOM. So when I stepped on the scale this morning it was up a little over 2 pounds from last Thursday. Yuck. It's water weight I'm sure. Water tastes blah when I'm snotty. Maybe I'll drink Crystal Light instead. I know it's technically cheating, but it's better than nothing, right?

My mom's fridge died last night, so now my refrigerator is full of non-healthy left overs and condiments. Somehow I got stuck with all the weird stuff, too. Oh well. My brother finally noticed that I've lost weight, too. He's a really big guy, and it really concerns me because he has a mechanical heart valve and common sense says that he doesn't need to be that overweight. I was hoping that once he noticed that I've lost (he's not one to compliment...) that I would be able to talk to him about WW - but I was so out of it yesterday that I didn't realize that I had my chance. Maybe it'll come up again.

My house is filled with pictures of me from before WW, and I have a hard time changing my mental image of myself. I really should take some pictures I guess, but I'm afraid it'll be discouraging somehow. Why is it that? I guess I don't really feel how far I've come because I've yet to buy many new clothes, etc. I see it on the scale, but its not registering. Besides, my weight at this age seems to be equaling a smaller size than this weight when I was younger. Does that make sense? I guess I've gained muscle since then.

Well, that's it for now. I hope ya'll have a great OP day!