so much for that!

So I pitched the Curves idea to Jeremy last night and he wasn't too excited about the start up fee. In fact, his exact words were "why don't you use that elliptical we bought a year ago and then if you know you're going to stick to it then maybe you can join." *rolls eyes* Thanks, Babe. Way to make me feel like I can do this.

I totally understand his point, though. It's just not what I wanted to hear. So I guess my goal is to "prove" to him that I'll stick to an exercise regime and then maybe I can join a gym. It sounds like from your comments (btw - thanks so much for all the info!!) that if I actually work out long enough to show that I'm sticking to it then I'll probably be more advanced than the Curves level. (ummm... I hope that made sense)

Soo... we're back to square one. But the whole point of going to Curves vs one of the other four gyms offered in our area is that at least with a bunch of old ladies I wouldn't feel self conscious. So maybe if I work out on my own for a while I won't feel as self conscious at one of the more serious gyms. There's this one place that's open 24/7 (which is a big deal in small town Athens) and is pretty much for serious workouters. It's always intimidated me before, but maybe it won't eventually. The whole point of a gym, for me, isn't necessarily the cardio aspect, but more of the weights. I can do cardio on my own if I set my mind to it, but I think I need to build muscle, too. My previous job was a pharmacy technician, and part of it required me to lift and carry these 30 pound boxes of IV fluids to the different med stations. My arms were so strong back then! Of course, it was the physical demands that ultimately made me want to switch jobs (that and the drama) but now I have a desk job and I can barely handle carrying a box filled with paper. I want to be strong again.

When we were camping all of the fishing sites were down these steep inclines. They had paths cleared, but the trip back up was killer. We made the trek a couple of times, but eventually we had to find a place that was easier to access because my legs were all jello like. We still had some great scenery, but we were at a boat launch, so of course, there were lots of motor boats and people. Had I been able to hack the trails then we would have been able to be secluded right on the water. I want to be able to handle the physical demands of an active life. I want to be able to kick my husbands butt! ;o)

So, yet again I'm going to try to find something that will work for me. I'd like to be a runner, but I never seem to have the gumption to start. Maybe this whole "proving myself" thing will help.

Thanks again for all your support! I love you guys!!

Have a great OP day!