the lobster syndrome*

I have what has not been medically diagnosed as the lobster syndrome. It’s not life-threatening, but it can cause discomfort. Here are my symptoms: I blush easily, and when it is pointed out the I’m blushing I proceed to a blush so intense that my entire body turns bright red. Anytime I exercise, no matter my fitness level, I turn a nice shade of lipstick red. I sunburn extremely easily, obviously, and if I’m in deep thought I become flushed. :o)
Despite my LS I have decided to start walking on my lunch break. I have an hour that is usually wasted on window shopping and the occasional errand, so I figure why not spend it getting some exercise? Granted I’ll come back to work looking like I’ve ran a 5K, and my coworkers will probably express concern for me for the first few weeks, but it’s all gravy. I’d rather be lobster faced than busting out of a yellow halter tea-length bridesmaid dress in front of no telling how many people. (yes, I’ve thought of the fact that I’m likely to go lobster faced while in said yellow dress in front of everyone. I’m just hoping I don’t do something to embarrass myself)
So, with much anticipation and a little apprehension, I will walk today during lunch. I’ve brought a change of clothes, my walkin shoes, and my knock off ipod. It should be good times. :o)
I’m going to try to let ya’ll know after lunch how it goes.
I had a pretty good Core day yesterday. I was really craving some comfort food last night, so after much deliberation my hubby and I decided to make pork chops with mashed taters and peas. All Core. (except the margarine I put in the taters - I need to buy some Core friendly stuff soon) It was delicious and pretty healthy, but I overate. That’s one of the hardest parts of Core. You can eat just until satisfied. But I was needing some comfort and I had the mindset of “at least I didn’t go get Chicken Fingers and French Fries” so I kind of lost it for a while there. Then later on, my hubby was going for a snack, so I wanted to eat to (why?) so I fixed another little helping of mashed potatoes. I had most of it eaten before I realized that I broke another Core rule - only one serving of potatoes or pasta a day. Shoot. I didn’t mean to, I just sort of did it without thinking. (Roni’s blog hit home today) But that was yesterday and today is today and maybe I’ve been reminded to THINK before I eat. :o)
*the lobster syndrome is a “condition” that I totally made up and should not be confused with any actual medical condition. :o)

rockin it HARD CORE!

Sorry. I couldn’t help myself. I’m super pumped up because I was down 4 pounds at my WI last night. Yay! I’d be proud of that period, but especially since I was sooo off plan the week before. (I’m telling ya’ll - it’s CORE)
Right now the only downside to Core is that it’s making my face breakout. I’ve told ya’ll before that I’m sort of having problems in this area, but I remember having some breakouts when I first started Core last time. The peeps on the Core Board seemed to think that it was related to my body detoxing itself. (ew.) It should go away soon enough. And it probably doesn’t help that I’m getting close to TOM. :o)
Thanks for all of your comments yesterday. I think I’m going to go for a 14 (provided that the dress is alterable). The WW Bridal Board said that under no circumstance should I order under my size, but I’m going with my gut here. (Besides I trust ya’ll more) :o) I’m trying to gear myself up to start some sort of exercise regime. *shudders* I’ve actually thought about ordering Buff Brides. Have ya’ll heard of that? There’s a Buff Bride challenge on the WW website that I’m thinking about doing, but it all seems so easy to stop doing. Ya’ll are really going to have to help me stay accountable. You have my permission to be mean to me if I’m not. :o)
Thanks again for all of your helpful comments and for all of your support. I really do love ya’ll!
Have an awesome OP day!!

dang blame scale!

So we worked our booties off all weekend and got Phase #1 of the laundry room revamp done. The yucky shelves were removed, the walls were cleaned, the window was framed out and we Kilzed and painted the mess out that little room. It’s nice and plain now. :o)
So needless to say, as I was slaving away I didn’t journal, although I kept up with what I was eating and made decent choices. That is until I unearthed my scale Sunday night and weighed myself. I don’t even remember what the stupid thing read, I just know that it was enough to discourage me and send me into a downward spiral of eating. I was STARVING, but I could have made much much much better choices. (like not potato chips….) So I figured that this WI would be a bust. My suspicions were “confirmed” Monday morning when I woke up weighing in at 199 ish. That’s nearly four pounds more than last weeks WI! I was uber frustrated about it all day and almost didn’t go to last night’s WI, but I did. (because I’ve already paid for it) And guess what? I lost .6 pounds! Yay!
As soon as I got home I weighed myself again and my scale read four pounds higher. I was wearing the same exact thing and I hadn’t eaten anything, so that could only mean that my scale is wrong.
So I asked Jeremy to hide it.
I’m not weighing myself every morning this week, and we’ll see how it goes. It makes me sick to think that I could have lost more if I hadn’t let the stupid scale get me down in the first place. But I lost, and I’ll take that. ;o) *shrugs*
I’m going to beat 195 this week if it kills me!! I’ve gotta gotta gotta get down to the 180’s. I’m sick of wearing these baggy clothes, and I absolutely refuse to buy new ones while I’m in the 90’s. (simply because I told myself that I wouldn’t)
oh well. It should be warm today and I’ll be able to swim after work. Fun Times!
Having a great OP day!

workin for the weekend

just realized that in one hour I’ll be halfway through my work week. Does it make you sad that I pay attention to these things? I don’t mind working so much - it’s just the waking up early that gets me. I cannot wait to sleep in on Saturday! I told my hubby this morning that we needed to try to get to bed earlier tonight. I just require more sleep than I used to. (I’m the oldest 24 year old you’ll ever meet…)
So I did pretty well yesterday. I only ate 7 points worth of snacks and I ate yummy healthy meals. Jeremy bought this little grill from the Dollar General and we’ve been enjoying grilling out. Food just tastes so much better when it’s cook over an open flame. He laughs at himself every time he uses it though. It’s really kind of sad itty bitty grill, but it was $10, and if we had bought a real one we would have had to move it in a year. This one we can throw away and not worry over it. Plus, it’s portable so we could take it camping with us. (we’ve been talking about going camping ever since we’ve been married - over 2 years and we haven’t gone yet!)
Jeremy’s time in seminary is going faster than I had counted on. At first I thought it would take forever because I can’t wait to have kids, but now I realize that in less than 18 months I could be looking at being a preacher’s wife, a full time homemaker, a mom to be. It’s kind of mind boggling, so I started changing myself now so it won’t be such a shock. I’m learning how to keep my house clean through the week, how to keep my laundry caught up, and how to keep meals cooked. (yes. I know. It’s just me and Jeremy right now, but believe me I’ve struggled with these things) I now have a house that’s #1 pleasant to come home to and #2 not embarrassing for someone else to see. It’s nice, really.
How does this relate to losing weight? Well, if you buy into that theory that stress causes weight gain (which I do) then a more harmonious home would lead to less stress. I usta feel like there was a dark cloud hanging over my head when I was at home because there were so many things that I should be doing. Now, I can’t use the excuse, “I can exercise until the house is cleaned” because the house is mostly clean all the time. I’m still working on it, but this website was the source of my inspiration : http://flylady.net/index.asp
Sorryto ramble on, but I just had to share. It’s making my life so much easier. I hope you all have lovely Wednesdays!

spiderwebs

I’m dusting off the cobwebs from my dusty unused blog. I don’t really know what’s up with me. I didn’t have quite as much time on my hands last week as I usually do, but I still should have made time for this. My habits show that I’ve missed the feeling of accountability and the moral support that I get here.
I haven’t done too super great the past week. I had days where I didn’t eat all of my points, and then I had days that I went overboard. And I didn’t journal as much as I should have. I think maybe I needed a break, so that I could have the “fresh start” feeling that I have today. I don’t know. I need to focus in on my next mini-goal instead of thinking about the 50+ pounds that I need to lose.
I guess I get to feeling a little too full of myself sometimes - thinking that I’m the WW jedi master - then have a hiccup like last week and feel like I’m starting all over again.
Weigh-In is tonight. I had told myself that I would use my “no weigh-in” coupon, but I think that I might need a little public humiliation. I need a good kick in the pants. I’m sure I’ve gained, but I guess I probably need that for motivation. (I know, I have a sick & twisted mind)
But instead of thinking of this as turning over a new leaf (as I normally do - I’ve turned over so many new leaves that I if I were a real tree I’d be dead) I’m going to think of this as a lesson learned. No meeting + no blogging + no journaling = habits out of control = weight gain. I don’t like that I prefer foods that aren’t healthy for me, but maybe one day I can face down a chocolate cake and have a teeny tiny slice and be happy with just that.

Itching to Inch Down

Yesterday was pretty great. I stayed OP, ate bigger meals and less snacks, and spent some quality time with my hubby. We grilled chicken last night. I never realized how delicious grilled foods were. My dad grilled a lot when we were kids, but I just thought that he was a good cook! :o) Maybe Jeremy’s just a good cook, too.
I’m slowly inching my way down this week. For some reason my scale has been my friend. That makes me happy.
I hope that this warm weather continues to warm up my pool, but even if it doesn’t, I’m getting back in tonight if it’s not raining. I’d much rather be cold and jumping around my pool than to be burning up sweaty red faced nasty working out on the elliptical. Mom and I are walking tomorrow night, so that’ll be three exercise sessions for this week. I’m still working on getting up earlier to work out, but I turn so red that it takes forever for me to turn back to my normal pastey color. And I don’t want to go to work looking like a lobster. Oh well. Maybe once it gets warm enough I can swim in the mornings and I won’t turn red.
That should be about enough ramblings for one day. Here’s the journal. I didn’t drink enough water, but other than that I did pretty well.
Food
Points
Roni’s Applepie Oatmeal
3
Milk
2
Chicken Egg Roll
2
SO Teriaki Chicken
4
string cheese stick
1
grilled chicken
2
corn, pintos & green beans
4
cupcake
3
100 cal pack kettle corn
2
granola bar
2
Total
25
I was a point short, I know, but oh well.
Thanks to everyone for their sweet comments & encouragement! I really don’t think that I could keep this up without ya’ll! I hope you have a great day!

healthy healthy hippo

Exercise. In some countries that’s considered a dirty word. I must be from one of those countries. I just can’t seem to get & stay motivated to do it. I think I lost gumption when we got my pool then it got too cold to use it. (are ya’ll tired of me talking about this blame pool, yet?) ;o)
My hubby has been going into work an hour earlier lately. (not by choice, of course. New working hours) So I’ve been waking up an hour earlier with him. Well. We wake up an hour earlier and then snooze for about 30 minutes. But anyways, I keep thinking that I’ll get up and work out before it’s time for me to get ready for work. This is the third day in a row that I didn’t. Maybe once I get used to losing an hour’s worth of sleep I’ll be able to do it. Ah. To be one of you people who like to exercise. I like to play in the pool… (stupid weather!)
So the exercise front isn’t going so well. My leader said that by the time you hit lifetime WW wants you to be getting like 4 AP’s a day. She looked me right in the eye and we both snickered. She knows my of the bad terms I am on with my elliptical. (apparently it doesn’t like to be used as a drying rack alone) But I mean, really, if I want to stay skinny (once I get there) and still eat more than 20 points a day I guess I will need to exercise. Why am I so lazy?
Meanwhile, I did pretty well yesterday with trying to eat bigger meals and fewer snacks. I think I only used 7 points for munchies. It’s not quite where I want to be, but I’m getting there.
So here’s the journal. Feel free to critique. I’m only posting this thing for accountability, not for the “eat what I eat because I’m a healthy healthy hippo” factor.
Food
Points
applesauce & peaches
1
WW Key Lime Yogurt
1
milk w/ coffee
1
Lemon Pepper Chicken
2
turnip greens
1
potato salad
4
baked beans
3
HC French Bread Pizza
6
whole wheat pita chips
2
carrots
0
granola bar
2
2 Kashi Waffles
3
Total
27